Chapter 12
A Word To The Wavering Ones
“But let him ask in
faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven
with the wind and tossed. For let not that man think that he shall receive
anything of the Lord.”
It would be difficult to find any one thing that
produces more discomfort in the religious life than does a wavering faith. The
figure given us by the apostle James exactly describes it—“a wave of the sea
driven by the wind and tossed.” And just as it is impossible for a traveler to
reach his destination by advancing one day, and retracing his steps the next, so
is it equally impossible for the wavering soul, while it wavers, to reach any
place of settled peace.
In our last chapter we considered the shakings of God;
and it might be thought that our waverings would be akin to His shakings. But
God’s shakings are caused by His love, and are for our blessing, and always lead
to rest and peace; while our waverings are caused by our want of faith, and
always lead to discomfort and turmoil.
A wavering Christian is a Christian who trusts in the
love of God one day and doubts it the next, and who is alternately happy or
miserable accordingly. He mounts to the hilltop of joy at one time, only to
descend at another time into the valley of despair. He is driven to and fro by
every wind of doctrine, is always striving and never attaining, and is a prey to
each changing influence, caused by his state of health, or by the influences
around him, or even by the state of the weather.
You would suppose that even the most ignorant child of
God would know without telling that this sort of experience is all wrong, and
that to waver in one’s faith after such a fashion is one of the things most
dishonoring to the Lord, whose truth and faithfulness it so impugns. But as a
fact, there are many Christians whose eyes are so blinded in the matter, that
they actually think this tendency to waver is a tribute to the humility of their
spirits, and who exalt every fresh attack of doubt into a secret and most pious
virtue. A wavering Christian will say complacently, “Oh, but I know myself to be
so unworthy, that I am sure it is right for me to doubt,” and they will imply by
their tone of superiority, that their hearer, if truly humble, would doubt
also.
In fact, I knew one really devoted Christian, whose
religious life was one long torment of doubt, who said to me once in solemn
earnestness, after I had been urging him to have more faith, “My dear friend, if
once I should be so presumptuous as to feel sure that God loved me, I should be
certain I was on the direct road to hell.” He thought, no doubt, that such an
assurance could only arise from a feeling that he was good enough to be worthy
of God’s love, and that to feel this would be presumption. And in this he would
have been right, for to think ourselves good enough to be worthy of God’s love
would be presumption indeed. But the ground for our assurance is not to come
from our own goodness, but from the goodness of God; and while we never can be
and never ought to be satisfied with the first, there cannot possibly be any
question to one who believes the Bible as to the all-sufficiency of the
last.
To see the absurdity, not to call it by any harsher
name, of the position of doubt taken up by this dear Christian, it is only
necessary to consider how it would work with any of our human relations in life.
Try to imagine what it would be in the marriage relation, or in the relation of
children to a parent, both of which relations are used by the Lord as figures of
our relation to Himself. Suppose either wife or husband should have a wavering
experience of confidence in the other, one day trusting, and the next day
doubting; would this be considered a sign of true humility on the doubter’s
part, and therefore a thing to be cherished as a virtue? Or, similarly, if
children should waver in their confidence toward their earthly parents, as
Christians seem to feel at liberty to do with their heavenly Parent, what name
could be found severe enough by which to call such unofficial conduct? Of course
in earthly relations such wavering might come from the fact that one of the
parties concerned was unworthy of confidence, and in this case it could be
excused. But in the case of God there could not possibly be any such excuse;
although the wavering faith of some of His children may, I am afraid, sometimes
lead outsiders to conclude that He cannot be worthy of much confidence, or their
faith would be more steadfast.
We would shrink in horror from being the cause of any
such imputation on the character of God; but I think, if we are honest with
ourselves, we will be forced to acknowledge that our wavering faith is
calculated to convey just such an impression; and that it really is, therefore,
in its essence disloyalty to a trustworthy God, and should be mourned over as a
grievous sin. The truth is, although we may not know it, our wavering comes, not
from humility, but from a subtle and often unconscious form of pride. True
humility accepts the love that is bestowed upon it, and the gifts of that love,
with a meek and happy thankfulness, while pride shrinks from accepting gifts and
kindnesses, and is afraid to believe in the disinterested goodness of the one
who bestows them. Were we truly humble, we would accept God’s love with thankful
meekness, and, while acknowledging our own unworthiness, would only think of it
as enhancing His grace and goodness in choosing us as the recipients of such
blessings.
A wavering faith is not only disloyal to God, but it is
a source of untold misery to ourselves, and cannot in any way advance our
spiritual interests, but must always under all circumstances hinder and upset
them. The apostle tells us that we are made partakers of Christ if we “hold the
beginning of our confidence steadfast unto the end.” To be steadfast is the
exact contrary of wavering, and to expect the results of steadfastness as the
outcome of wavering is as foolish as it would be to expect to reach the top of a
mountain by alternately climbing two steps and sliding back three. And yet many
people expect this very thing. They make a “beginning of confidence,” and for a
little time, while the freshness of it lasts, are full of joy and triumph. Then
trials come, and temptations; and doubts begin to intrude; and instead of
treating these doubts as enemies to be resisted and driven away, they receive
them as friends, and give them entertainment; and sooner or later they begin to
waver in their faith and in their allegiance, and from that moment all settled
peace is gone. When skies are bright and all goes well with them, their faith
revives, and they are happy; but when skies are dark and things go wrong doubts
triumph, and they waver again.
I was having a conversation with a very eminent
clergyman on the possibility of a religious life of abiding peace and rest, and
he told me frankly that he did not believe it was possible, and that he thought
most Christian experience was like his own. “Now I,” he said, “when I want to
write my sermons, I get up on the mountaintop by prayer and by climbing. I put
my foot first on one promise and then on another, and so, by hard climbing and
much praying, I reach the summit, and can begin my sermon. All goes swimmingly
for a little while, and then suddenly an interruption comes, some trouble with
my children, or some domestic upset in the house, or some quarrel with a
neighbor, and down I tumble from the mountaintop, and can only get back again by
another wearisome climb. “Sometimes,” he said, “I stay on the summit for two or
three days, and once in a great while, even for two or three weeks. But as to
there being any possibility of being seated in heavenly places in Christ, and
abiding there continually, I cannot believe it.”
I am sure this will describe the experience of many of
God’s children, who are hungering and thirsting for the peace and rest Christ
has promised them, but who seem unable to attain to it for more than a few
moments at a time. They may get now and then a faint glimmer of faith, and peace
seems to be coming, and then all the old doubts spring up again with tenfold
power. “Look at your heart,” they say; “see how cold it is, how indifferent. How
can you for a moment believe that God can love such a poor, unworthy creature as
you are?” And it all sounds so reasonable that they are plunged into darkness
again.
The whole trouble arises from a want of faith. It seems
commonplace to say it, for I have to say it so often, but in the spiritual life
it is to us always, always, ALWAYS according to our faith. This is a spiritual
law that can neither be neglected nor evaded. It is not an arbitrary law which
we might hope could be repealed in our own especial case, but it is inherent in
the very nature of things, and is therefore unalterable. And equally inherent in
the nature of things is its converse, that if it is to be to us according to our
faith, so will it also be to us according to our doubts.
The whole root and cause then of our wavering
experience is not, as we may have thought, our sins, but is simply and only our
doubts. Doubts create an impassable gulf between our souls and the Lord, just as
inevitably as they do between us and our earthly friends; and no amount of
fervor or earnestness can bridge this gulf in one case any more than in the
other. “Let not that man that wavereth think that he shall receive anything of
the Lord.” This is not because God is angry, and visits His displeasure in this
way on the man who doubts, but it is because of that inherent nature of things
that makes it impossible for doubt and confidence to exist together, whether in
earthly relations or heavenly, and which neither God nor man can alter. “To whom
sware he that they should not enter into his rest but to them that believed not.
So we see they could not enter in because of unbelief.” It was not that God
would not allow them to enter in as a punishment for their unbelief, but they
simply could not. It was an impossibility. Faith is the only door into the
kingdom of Heaven, and there is no other. If we will not go in by that door, we
cannot get in at all, for there is no other way.
God’s salvation is not a purchase to be made, nor wages
to be earned, nor a summit to be climbed, nor a task to be accomplished; but it
is simply and only a gift to be accepted, and can only be accepted by faith.
Faith is a necessary element in the acceptance of any gift, whether earthly or
heavenly. My friends may put their gifts upon my table, or even place them in my
lap, but unless I believe in their friendliness and honesty of purpose enough to
accept these gifts, they can never become really mine.
It is plain, therefore, that the Bible is simply
announcing, as it always does, the nature of things, when it declares that
“according to your faith” it shall be unto you. And the sooner we settle down to
this the better. All our wavering comes from the fact that we do not believe in
this law. We acknowledge, of course, that it is in the Bible, but we think it
cannot really mean what it says, and that there must be some additions made to
it; for instance, as “according to our fervency it shall be unto us,” or
“according to our importunity,” or “according to our worthiness.” And, if the
whole truth were told, we are inclined to think that these additions of ours
are, if anything, by far the most important part of the whole matter. As a
consequence of this, our attention is mostly directed to getting these matters
settled, and we watch our own frames and feelings, and search into our own
worthiness or unworthiness with so much assiduity that we overlook almost
altogether the one fundamental principle of faith, without which nothing
whatever can be done. Moreover, as our disposition and feelings are the most
variable things in the universe, and our sense of worthiness or unworthiness
changes with our changing feelings, our experience cannot but waver; and the
possibility of a steadfast faith recedes farther and farther into the
background. We in short make the faithfulness of God, and the truth of His Word,
depend upon the state of our feelings.
I am very certain that if any of our friends should
treat us in this doubting fashion, we would be wounded and indignant beyond
measure; and no feeling of unworthiness on their part could excuse them in our
eyes for such a wavering of their confidence in us. In fact, we would far rather
our friends should even sin against us than doubt us. No form of sinfulness ever
hindered the Lord Jesus while on earth from doing His mighty works. The only
thing that hindered Him was unbelief. In His own town, and among His own
neighbors and friends, where naturally He would have liked to have performed
some of His miracles, we are told that, “He did not many mighty works there
because of their unbelief.” It was not that He would not, but simply that He
could not. And He cannot in our case, any more than in theirs.
But I am afraid some of you may think I am making a
mistake, and that, in spite of what God has said, the man whose faith wavers can
after all, if he is only fervent and earnest enough, receive something from the
Lord. That means that you do not believe that God understands the laws of His
kingdom as well as you yourself do, and that it is safer to follow your own
ideas rather than His Word. And yet you must know that hitherto your doubts have
brought you nothing but darkness and misery. Recall the days, and weeks, and
even perhaps months and years of a halting, stumbling, uncomfortable, religious
life, and ask yourself honestly whereto the cause of it all has not been your
wavering faith. If you believe one day that God loves you and is favorable to
you, and the next day doubt His love, and fear He is angry with you, does it not
stand to reason that you must waver in your experience from joy to misery; and
that only a steadfast faith in His love and care could give you an unwavering
experience?
The one question, therefore, for all whose faith wavers
is how to put an end at once and forever to their wavering. And here I am
thankful to say that I know of a perfect remedy The only thing you have to do is
to give it up. Your wavering is caused by your doubting, and by nothing
else. Give up your doubting, and your wavering will stop. Keep on with your
doubting, and your wavering will continue. The whole matter is as simple as
daylight; and the choice is in your own hands.
Perhaps you may think this is an extreme statement, for
it has probably never entered your heads that you could give up doubting
altogether. But I assert that you can. You can simply refuse to doubt. You can
shut the door against every suggestion of doubt that comes, and can by faith
declare exactly the opposite. Your doubt says, “God does not forgive my sins.”
Your faith must say, “He does forgive me; He says He does, and I choose to
believe Him. I am His forgiven child.” And you must assert this steadfastly,
until all your doubts vanish. You have no more right to say that you are of such
a doubting nature that you cannot help doubting, than to say you are of
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other. You must give up your doubting just as you would give up your thieving.
You must treat the temptation to doubt exactly as a drunkard must treat the
temptation to drink; you must take a pledge against it.
The process I believe to be the most effectual is to
lay our doubts, just as we lay our other sins, upon God’s altar, and make a
total surrender of them. We must give up all liberty to doubt, and must
consecrate our power of believing to Him, and must trust Him to keep us
trusting. We must make our faith in His Word as inevitable and necessary a thing
as is our obedience to His will. We must be as loyal to our heavenly Friend as
we are to our earthly friends, and must refuse to recognize the possibility of
such thing as any questioning or doubting of His love or His faithfulness, or of
any wavering in our absolute faith in His Word.
Of course temptations to waver will come, and it will
sometimes look to us impossible that the Lord can love such disagreeable,
unworthy beings as we feel ourselves to be. But we must turn as deaf an ear to
these insinuations against the love of God as we would to any insinuations
against the love of our dearest friend. The fight to do this may sometimes be
very severe, and may even at times seem almost unendurable. But our unchanging
declaration must continually be, “though he slay me, yet will I trust in him.”
Our steadfast faith will unfailingly bring us, sooner or later, a glorious
victory.
Probably it will often seem to us as if it would be a
righteous thing, in view of our many shortcomings, and only what a truly humble
soul would do, to waver in our faith and to question whether the salvation of
the Lord Jesus can be meant for us. But if we at all understand what the
salvation of the Lord Jesus Christ is, we cannot fail to recognize that all this
is only temptation; and that what we must do is to lift up the shield of faith
persistently against it; for the shield of faith always does and always will
quench every fiery dart of the enemy.
The Spirit of God never under any circumstance could
suggest a doubt of the love of God. Wherever doubts come from, one thing is
certain, they do not come from Heaven. All doubts are from an evil source, and
they must always be treated as the suggestions of an enemy. We cannot, it is
true, prevent the suggestions of doubt making themselves heard in our hearts,
any more than we can prevent our ears from hearing the oaths of wicked men in
the streets. But just as we can refuse to approve of or join in the oaths of
these men, so can we refuse to pay any attention to these suggestions of doubt.
The cases are exactly similar. But while in the case of the oaths, we know
without any question that it would be wicked to join in with them, in the case
of the doubts we have a lurking feeling that, after all, doubts may have
something pious in them, and ought to be encouraged. But I believe one is as
displeasing to God as the other.
Again I would repeat that the only way to treat the
doubts that make you waver is to give them up. An absolute surrender is the only
remedy. It is like the drunkard with his drink, half measures are of no manner
of use. Total abstinence is the only hope.
The most practical way of doing this is not only to
make the interior surrender, but to meet, as I have said, each doubt with a flat
denial; and to carry the war into the enemy’s country, as it were, by an
emphatic assertion of faith in direct opposition to the doubt. For instance, if
the doubt arises as to whether God can love anyone so sinful and unfaithful as
you feel yourself to be, you must at once assert in definite words in your own
heart, and if possible aloud to someone, that God does love you; that He says He
does, and that His Word is a million times more trustworthy than any of your
feelings, no matter how well founded they may seem to you to be. If you cannot
find anyone to whom to say this, then write it in a letter, or else say it aloud
to yourself and to God. Be very definite about it.
If in anything you have had a “beginning of
confidence,” if you have ever laid hold of any promise or declaration of the
Lord’s, hold on steadfastly to that promise or declaration without wavering, let
come what may. There can be no middle ground. If it was true once, it is true
still, for God is unchangeable. The only thing that can deprive you of it is
your unbelief. While you believe, you have it. “Whatsoever things ye desire when
ye pray, believe that ye receive them and ye shall have them.”
Let nothing shake your faith. Should even sin unhappily
overtake you, you must not let it make you doubt. At once, on the discovery of
any sin, take I John 1:9 and act on it. “If we confess our sins, he is faithful
and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
Confess your sin, therefore, immediately upon the discovery of it, and believe
at once that God does forgive it, as He declares, and does again cleanse you
from all unrighteousness. No sin, however grievous, can separate us from God for
one moment, after it has been treated in this fashion. To allow sin to cause
your faith to waver is only to add a new sin to the one already committed.
Return at once to God in the way the Bible teaches, and let your faith hold
steadfastly to His Word. Believe it, not because you feel it, or see it, but
because He says it. Believe it, even when it seems to you that you are believing
a lie. Believe it actively and steadfastly, through dark and through light,
through ups and through downs, through times of comfort and through times of
despair, and I can promise you, without a fear, that your wavering experience
will be ended.
“Therefore, beloved brethren, be ye steadfast,
immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that
your labor is not in vain in the Lord.” To be “immovable” in one’s religious
life is the exact opposite of wavering. In the Forty-sixth Psalm we can see what
it is. The earth may be removed, and the mountains may be carried into the midst
of the sea, our whole universe may seem to be in ruins, but while we trust in
the Lord we “shall not be moved.”
The man who wavers in his faith is upset by the
smallest trifles; the man who is steadfast in his faith can look on calmly at
the ruin of all his universe.
To be thus immovable in one’s religious life is a boon
most ardently to be desired, and it may be ours if we will only hold the
beginning of our confidence steadfast to the end.
Faith is sweetest of worships to him who so loves
His unbearable splendors in darkness to hide;
And to trust in Thy Word, dearest Lord, is true love,
For those prayers are most granted which seem most
denied.
And faith throws her arms around all Thou hast told
her,
And able to hold as much more, can but grieve;
She could hold Thy grand self, Lord! if Thou wouldst
reveal it.
And love makes her long to have more to believe.
